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On the day, I lost you forever.

On the day, I lost you forever.

In loving memory of you, my beloved son.

Why do I have to cry on this day every year?

  • It hurts.
  • It’s thumping in my head.
  • My heart beats faster with each passing
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The last two days

The last two days after the COVID-19 Vaccine AstraZeneca.

My biggest test of them all

Some say we should stay safe and healthy. Great idea! So I was invited for my 1st COVID vaccine. I had to decide; do I want a shot or not.

Next, my COVID-19 vaccination is booked. Yeah, and today they … Read more

A matter of trust

A matter of trust.

On my daily walk to the beach, I first stumbled over a squirrel jumping in front of me. Glaring at me and then it ran off. 

Next, I see this tiny Robin as the bird is

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VALENTINE’S DAY

It is Valentine’s day, and we know love is the most wonderful of all feelings.

On this very special day, it’s now 10 years ago since I received my ever first Valentines card.
And on this very special day it’s
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WHAT DID HE HIDE?

WHAT DID HE HIDE?

Was my boyfriend feeding and using me?

Was he singling me out?

Was he toying and isolating me?

He looked human, charming and trustworthy, but he acted like a possessed vampire sucking out the blood of … Read more

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What made me be so attached to him?

 

What made me be so attached to to my new boyfriend?

Did I have attachment issues because I had poor self-confidence, and big desires for a romantic relationship?

I quickly felt my new boyfriend liked me from the first … Read more

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What changed in my personality?

 

What changed in my personality?

What was the biggest thing I changed about myself after being in a relationship with him?
And what was the biggest thing I changed after I realised all the RED flags I had
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Was he ever happy?

Was he ever happy with his life?

I believe he goes through very brief periods of what he perceives to be ‘happiness’ (e.g., financial support, new county, new house, new supply, etc.) but it’s a short-lived and ultimately hollow victory.
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When The Narcissist Says I Love You

 

What Does It Mean When The Narcissist Says I Love You?

One of my own major questions; did he love me?
  • Or did he love my funds more?
  • And what did it mean when he said; Baby, I love
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